Jazzing Up

I like to look back at my past. 

No, it's more like I obsess over the past--to the point where I don't let myself move forward.

I don't want to call it "regretting"; but I constantly wonder what my life would have been like if I made a different decision, a different choice.  I always find myself caught up in something that I have no control over, worry and wonder about it for days, weeks, months. 

Then I tell myself, "oh, I hate myself."

That's why I love to play jazz and listen to jazz. That's why I love... jazz! It makes me try something new. Move forward with new ideas. Experiment without any hesitation.

"It isn't where you came from, it's where you're going that counts."  - Ella Fitzgerald